Internal

today i hurt myself
to see if i can feel
lately ive felt so numb
that only pain is real
i can feel nothing els
but the pain inside
i can see myself declining
down this emotional slide
i can sence the darkness
closeing in on me
i can heare the condesending
thoughts of who i should be
thoughts of who i could never be
frequently thrown in my face
now all i have to comfort me is
the pain of a blade
the blood relieves my anger as
i fall to the bottom of this bottomless
pit of dispare
im a loner eith scars eternaly afraid
to lead my own way
just think of me as the girl
with gashes for glitter
afraide to be herself
so she acts selfish and bitter
she hates who she is
and she hates who shes been
she tries her hardest just to be a good friend
and when she is regected her blade is her only asylum
she hides in the shadows
and lets her blood do the crying
mad at the world shes internaly dieing